Archive for March, 2009

“A hard life”

“It is when you tried to be better that you discover how badly broken you’ve  become ”  – mai-bitter


Sound Advice from a Dying Monarch


Rejoice, O young man, in thy youth; and let thy heart cheer thee in the days of thy youth, and walk in the ways of thine heart, and in the sight of thine eyes: but know thou, that for all these things God will bring thee into judgment.

Ecclesiastes  11:9

King Solomon had everything. Greatness, knowledge, power prestige, everything that a human soul could misconceptualy desire to find happiness but evidently King Solomon clearly define all of those things as vanity, chasing after the wind.  Inspite of everything the end of his life was terrible. I remember our  pastor once  said :  “Solomon’s life drew an end under the punishment of affliction and frustration.” The life of Solomon has been a great example that worldly things doest mount to anything but temporary enjoyment and happiness.

Cease to chase after the winds and takes this advice from a dying Monarch

1. You are accountable to God for your life.  (Ecclesiastes 11:9)

-regardless of what you learn in school.

– what the world tell you

To go to heaven is completely different as facing God when you’re there for judgement.

2. Set  your priorities right early in your life.

-God should be the priority of your life.

to be continued……

The Dawn of my life

capturing the dawn in cebu city

The desire to remember even just a bit of happiness i felt as i took this photo has been so intense. I am wondering if I am still capable to find the same bliss I used to have. The picture was taken on the roof deck of the ship. We were on our way to cebu city for our educational trip. A moment meant to be remembered.

I woke up early today to review. I’ll be taking an exam later. I notice the slowly change of the sky. I hear the rooster crows and the chirping of the morning bird indeed new day is yet to come. I then started to ponder, when was the last time I let my heart  stay still and appreciate the beauty of wonders like this. Since when??? This past few weeks was the busiest week of my life. Projects were due , its seems everybody was busy.  The word relax, be still, were forgotten.  But I realize that those weeks, I seem to loose the importance of life. I fail to appreciate things that surrounds me. I used to be so occupied with the things in this world. As today the feeling is so different. I am on the state of appreciating this things. Dawns are beauty,  for the poet it may suggest hope after the dark.  As for me the dawn signifies change, a brand new and different day is to come, a day which is  unique from yesterday.The dawn suggest happiness and peace to my soul. Oh!! how I love it!

I am confused with a lot of things right now.  The desire of  change is to intense that I am hurting. I am aware that plenty of things in me calls for a change  but then though the passion is there but i guess the perseverance, I lack :(.  Gone are the days when i am in the dark. Should I say I am at the dawn of my life???, but I am afraid for the change. I am so terrified with the vision of change. I wanted to cry, I just don’t know what to do rather I am not willing to do it cause its painful. Direct me Lord God to which way should I go. Incline my heart to your ways that I may be doing what is right and would glorify you. There are  plenty of wrongs in me that I am confuse as to how to make them right, how to start and how to take it. You know me more than I know myself. I don’t wanted to be on the state of foolishness just because am lonely and I am in pain. I know I can find hapiness in you alone Lord God. But how am I ganna do it.. How??? Help me Lord God.

be determine to change