Archive for September, 2009

angry – frustrated – disapointed – stupid

great life

I am trying to think about my life now. I feel so bad thinking I cant be that good so that somebody could live a lighter life. I am always been told that I am selfish, I am this and that.  Well, I guess I am. I work my way through college. I’ve been frustrated, angry, disaponted and felt so down all the time. Just because am no good, but inspite of that I tried hard, really hard.

Everything seems to be so frustrating this days. My job sucks , am feeling so useless… I wanna die..

I am No GOOD thats it!!! so am living nalang that life…darn


In Love – Handing part of my happiness to someone


I decided to love a person whose been so different from me. I am taking my chances on him. I lost my faith on men for I was badly broken before by few men that I love so dearly. Then I meet this man whom I choose to love and I know by doing that, I expose myself to another possible wave of unexplainable and unbearable pain. I love him so dearly that at times even just the thought of him, tears my eyes. I never thought I could love this way. With him I will feel pain, I know. But am taking my chances for I know only with him I will be truly happy. I want him to be mine really, but I accepted the fact that it has to be a mutual decision. It should be, the both of us that should decide to hold on and gladly as of this time  we did…………………………

I  Love him so…..